Mother’s Day. A different view.

Yesterday (11th March) in the UK was mother’s day, a day to celebrate the woman who brought you up. A day of Flowers, breakfasts in bed, and homemade cards from Little ones. I read posts online with an outpouring of love and laughter. Some of grief for mothers not with us. Some of love for…

Perfection. 

Sugarplum Sparkles on Instagram, got me thinking about this (if you don’t follow her, you should, click on her name) What is perfection? Who gave us the concept of perfection? Why do we hold ourselves to unachievable ideals? Why do we hold others to the same ideals? Why must we appear perfect? Why can’t we…

A snapshot of depression!

How many times do you question if it is you? How many times do you blame yourself, ask what is wrong with you?or why you did or said that? How many times do you berate yourself in your own mind. Before you realise that it’s not you. It’s not you at all.  Depression is merciless,…

Where I’m at now…an update!

I started this blog in July 2016 to mainly catalogue my weightloss. That very quickly changed and my blog is really a ‘Jack of all trades, master of none’ and I am happy with that being the case. I haven’t really talked about my weightloss/gain as much lately, as it has been on the backburner….

Killing me with kindness

As I have previously mentioned I would write about my trip to Newcastle when I had calmed down a little. Whilst I am calm,the sadness I feel is still there. Maybe writing it down might help? Who knows! So,I was on the train and I felt confident in my outfit, minimal make up and my…

Food envy… A history 

Once of my earliest memories of ‘food anxiety/jealousy’ was when I was about seven or eight. I was in bed and I woke up Smelling chinese food. My parents had got a takeaway WITHOUT ME!  I wanted chinese food. I wanted it! I cried myself to sleep. Looking back Half of my brain thinks that…

Overwhelmed.

Im lying awake… Finding the world the most overhoverwhelming  place. Reading the news is too much. The world is terrifying and the media exacerbates that beyond any reasonable belief. I end up worrying about worrying. . I know, worrying doesnt help anything. Maybe if I write a few of my worries down then… A problem…

Pre-Birthday Anxiety!

It’s January, my birthday is in August. AUGUST! Yet I have already begun worrying about it. This year I will be 30. Whilst others celebrate and go on holidays, have big parties, etc.. I don’t want any of that. I don’t want anything other than a normal birthday. My birthday is anxiety inducing enough without…

New person anxiety

You know when you have so many blogs on the list but choose the one that doesn’t require pictures and links? Well. That’s why this blog is a little earlier than planned! I’m awake at a ridiculous hour doing laundry, and writing this whilst I wait! So, enough of that. New people! I have an…